This song is dedicated to you Bridger! I have been changed for the better because I knew you!

I was introduced to "Wicked" this weekend by Mark's good friend and his wife (mostly by his wife). Once I heard this song (below) I instantly thought of Bridger. It's perfect, and describes his impact on my life.

Kristin Chenoweth: "For Good"

Today I miss you bad

Hi Bridge,

I was lying in bed this morning and I couldn't help but think of you. I wish you were here. I thought of when Carter was born and how much fun it was to have that newborn look at me and smile for the first time. I thought about how you would have taken the crib and Carter would have been kicked out of his bed. (That would have been good for him.) Then I realized that you would still probably be in the bassinet and not in the crib yet. BJ, I miss you horribly. Sometimes I just don't get why God wouldn't let you be here. Your mom and I needed you. God must have known it would kill us. If you ever get the chance to ask God why this had to happen, can you have him send me a message about it? I don't get it sometimes. I don't get why parents have to lose their children.

But then I'm reminded of a Parent who lost his Child so we could all be together again. It was because of love. That is all I have to hang onto. The faith that I'll see you again. I miss you buddy.

Love, Dad

An Angel Never Dies

An Angel Never Dies

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,

That something stopped my heart

I felt each tender squeeze you gave,

I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold

It doesn’t mean I’m gone

This world was worthy, not of me

God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,

What you are forced to face

You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,

Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,

God doesn’t make mistakes

But that wont soften your worst blow,

Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,

Another child you’ll bear

Believe me when I say to you,

That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,

When you will hold my hand,

Stroke my face and kiss my lips

And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,

Or gazed into your eyes

That doesn’t mean I never was,

An Angel never dies.

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Another Angel Buddy

Well Buddy,

Your dad told me of another little baby that is probably going to join you today. His little heart didn't develop and he isn't suppose to live after he is born. After hearing this I began thinking of you and the day you were born. It makes me sad. Today the weather has been exactly the same as the day you were born. It was nice all day but has later turned grey and cloudy and started to rain. Maybe the rain is Heavenly Father's tears... Although Heavenly Father needs you, I think he also cries for the suffering he sees us going through. It is hard to see your children in pain and I'm sure that it is no exception for him. I am sad, that is for sure, but I am proud of the mission you are fulfilling. I am grateful to know that we have a sweet angel watching over our family. We feel you around us and we love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

I love this quote that a good friend of mine sent me: 


"You've gotta take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what you've got, remember what you had, always forgive and never forget, and live your life with no regrets."


Citation needed. 

You left our arms to be in His....