This is exactly how I feel

I was reading through the Ensign trying to decide what I wanted to teach for my Relief Society lesson. I came upon a couple of stories about grief. I found an excerpt that explains how I feel. It is from the article Lifting the Hands Which Hang Down - February 2013 Ensign

"I have found that the most helpful conversations occur when people share their favorite memories of my wife and daughter with me; it’s also helpful when they are willing to listen to my favorite memories. I often cry during these conversations, but that doesn’t mean my day is ruined. These interactions actually brighten my day. You don’t have to help people who are grieving to stop crying. It may seem counterintuitive to cause more pain, but I have found with my own grief that I’m in pain anyway, and these conversations provide a chance for me to release my feelings."