Today I miss you bad

Hi Bridge,

I was lying in bed this morning and I couldn't help but think of you. I wish you were here. I thought of when Carter was born and how much fun it was to have that newborn look at me and smile for the first time. I thought about how you would have taken the crib and Carter would have been kicked out of his bed. (That would have been good for him.) Then I realized that you would still probably be in the bassinet and not in the crib yet. BJ, I miss you horribly. Sometimes I just don't get why God wouldn't let you be here. Your mom and I needed you. God must have known it would kill us. If you ever get the chance to ask God why this had to happen, can you have him send me a message about it? I don't get it sometimes. I don't get why parents have to lose their children.

But then I'm reminded of a Parent who lost his Child so we could all be together again. It was because of love. That is all I have to hang onto. The faith that I'll see you again. I miss you buddy.

Love, Dad