It has been a rough couple of days. My mom gave me some money to go and get something for Bridger's grave for Christmas because she wasn't going to get a chance for Christmas because of her knee surgery. So, I went to Walgreens because I had seen some cute yard signs in their ad a while back. As I wandered around the store trying to figure out what would be best FOR MY SON'S GRAVE I started to break down. I saw some cute 1st Christmas hats and bibs and realized yet again that our son would not be spending his first Christmas with us. The night that followed and the next day were full of sadness. While browsing through other angel blogs today I found this poem. It helps a little. Even though Bridger will not be spending Christmas with us, he will be spending it with Christ, whom Christmas is really all about. I am grateful for that. If he can't be with me at least he can be with Christ and our Heavenly Father. I am sure he is surrounded with love. Maybe even including his soon to be sister or brother. We love you Bridger! Our Angel...
My First Christmas in Heaven
I see the countless Christmas trees round the world below,
With tiny lights, like heaven’s stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular. Please wipe away your tear,
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can’t compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description to here the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me. I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away… we’re really not apart.
So be happy for my loved ones, you know I hold you dear.
Be glad I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I sent you each a special gift from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory of my own undying love.
After all, love is the gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as our father said to do.
For I can’t count the blessings or the love he has for each of you.
So have a merry Christmas and wipe away your tears.
Remember I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
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Grief vs. Mourning
4 years ago
Oh I'm so sorry! I remember harrys first christmas in heaven almost 2 years ago. It was awful. He had only been gone about 2 months and it was hard celebrating when I was still grieving. One thing that helped me that year was we picked a baby boy off one of the angel trees and bought him Christmas. Now we do it every year and fafro a boy the same age. So this year we got a 2 year old since that's how old Harry would be. I got the name from old navy this year and cried the whole way home thinking this year would've been so fun celebrating with him. But it makes me happy to be buying Christmas for someone in honor of Harry. I hope you can find peace this Christmas. Be prepared that first Christmas we sang away in a manager in church and I was BAWLING so was my mom. We couldn't stop so just a warning when you sing it. It's so special but so sad because its about sweet baby Jesus. Hugs!
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