This is exactly how I feel

I was reading through the Ensign trying to decide what I wanted to teach for my Relief Society lesson. I came upon a couple of stories about grief. I found an excerpt that explains how I feel. It is from the article Lifting the Hands Which Hang Down - February 2013 Ensign

"I have found that the most helpful conversations occur when people share their favorite memories of my wife and daughter with me; it’s also helpful when they are willing to listen to my favorite memories. I often cry during these conversations, but that doesn’t mean my day is ruined. These interactions actually brighten my day. You don’t have to help people who are grieving to stop crying. It may seem counterintuitive to cause more pain, but I have found with my own grief that I’m in pain anyway, and these conversations provide a chance for me to release my feelings."

Hallo Bridger!

Well, Hello from Germany!

I know you can see us wherever we go, and you have watched us move to Germany, but I still feel the need to tangibly say, hi! I still think about you every single day, and I had a hard time after we first moved here. Moving has been a huge adjustment and when we moved into our large house and Carter and Paige were running around like crazy it made me sad because I realized you were missing. I still have moments of bitterness and anger that swell up within me because you had to leave so soon. But for the most part, I am grateful that you have obtained celestial glory and are fulfilling a higher mission. I love you so much. I can't wait until we come back for a visit and I can decorate your spot instead of just having to look at pictures. Grandma and Grandpa have been doing a nice job taking care of your spot for me. What would I do without them? They are the best grandparents ever! With that being said, here is a pic of your spot:

I LOVE YOU!!!